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I guess you could say that
intuitive abilities
run in my family. Just about everyone, on both my mothers and fathers side of
the family, have a fairly strong
"sixth sense" of some sort.
Most of my relatives have had consistent, paranormal experiences, and a kind of
intuition that often defies logic.
As a young child, I
didn’t know that there was anything different about me. However,
as I got
older, I realized that most of the people around me, especially my peers, really didn’t have the same
experience of the world that I had. I started to feel isolated, and grew afraid. Eventually, I became almost disgusted with myself,
as couldn't seem to 'get a hold of myself' and stop seeing things that no one
else did. I was
sure I was delusional -- probably "crazy." (Whatever THAT meant!) I think that on the surface I was a fairly normal teenager. I learned that it was hard for most people to 'read' me, and so I was able to hide a lot of my fears. Inside, however, I was slowly falling apart; eaten up with anxiety about what was happening to me. I was a good student: a member of the National Honor Society, in my Junior year of High School and was even a cheerleader. I was very active in the Rainbow Girls and loved doing community service. But I was also terrified every day and every night that I was losing my mind. My dreams were filled with the sights and sounds of other times and places -- and with a different kind of school. I spent what seemed like many hours of my life in dream classrooms, seeing and learning things that were hard to share with the people I knew in my waking life. When I was 'awake' I saw people that others couldn't see. I still find it interesting that people can't see what I do, but they will often react (unconsciously) to what I hear the 'ghosts' saying to them. I was afraid of disappointing (and scaring) my parents and teachers by telling them what was going on, so I mostly didn't, unless it got too be too disturbing. My Dad, and a few perceptive adults tried to talk to me, At that point, though, I'd realized how difficult is is to try and explain the unexplainable. After awhile, I basically quit trying. I wasn't sure enough of myself to know what I say. Or language has few words to express what I experienced -- and I was just too afraid of what would happen to me, if I got into much detail. It seemed certain that I was losing my mind and I was afraid that I would end up in a mental hospital. At the age of eighteen, after a semester and a half of college, as a psych major, I went to see a psychiatrist. (Naturally I majored in Psychology, I was going to fix myself, until I realized that I needed an expert!) I was on the verge of a breakdown, and the first day I saw the Doctor, I desperately told him, "I hear voices, I see things that others don't seem to, and I float out of my body. Give me something to 'fix me' so that this doesn't happen anymore." I begged him to try anything, even shock treatments, if that would help. Anything, to stop these experiences. I was so convinced that I must be psychotic that when, after extensive testing, the Doctor told me that I was not, it was hard for me to believe. I thought that I had somehow drawn him into the psychosis with me. It took some time, and some experiments, before I believed that what he was telling me might be possible. I had come to the point that I didn't believe in "ESP" type things anymore; I discounted them all as fantasy, delusions or wishful thinking. He had a personal interest in psychic phenomena, and people that were misdiagnosed as schizophrenic, when they were actually experiencing psychic phenomena. He was knowledgeable about some of the things I told him and later demonstrated. I believe that his unusual interests are the main reason that I didn't get put away in a mental hospital. I have met many people "like me" over the years, that were not as lucky. Over a period of several years, I started to trust him a little, and he began to help me try to accept myself. He showed me that I had quite a talent for "intuitive knowing." I ended up working for him for several years as a biofeedback technician and also as an "in-office psychic". This caused some raised eyebrows with his colleagues, but he didn't care. He was interested in results, not what people thought of him. I won't say that this was a 100% positive experience. It was not. In some ways, it may have hurt my more than helped me, but, things eventually worked out. It took another Doctor, who was not fascinated with psychic phenomena, to really help me to accept that these things are "normal" for me and nothing to be afraid of. He taught me to see past the blanket statement that I made about my life: "different is bad." During the last twenty-seven years, I have spent countless hours gaining clarity. Self-discipline could not stop the experiences from happening, as I had originally hoped, but it has helped me in so many other ways, including in the business world. I have kept a journal for many, many years, and through this journal, I came to see that the information that I receive is solid, practical and positive. I learned self-mastery, rather than the mastery of others. It hasn’t been easy, but then, nothing worthwhile in life is. Back then I didn't know anyone else who talked to Beings, saw auras, dreamed lucidly, etc. The few people I met who did either had as hard a time talking about it as I did, or were pretty famous psychics. I did not want to be a famous psychic, <G> but I did want to be able to talk about my life with people who mattered to me. It took me many, many years to be able to do this, but it was, as my Dad says, "worth every turn of the wheel to get here!" Yes, there are still a few people who think I am evil, crazy, delusional, etc. Oddly enough, they are all people who don't know me, personally. It's so easy to point the finger at someone you don't know. Gossip is a hobby for some people. I happen to think that gossiping is an act of evil, whether you listen to it, or spread it. I grew up seeing the cruelties that ignorant people could inflict on people who are "different." I was pretty lucky, however, and had not encountered many problems with intolerance, until six years ago. I came to a small town to do a job, and was almost immediately bombarded with fear, ignorance and boldface lies. I also had over a hundred eager people attend one workshop. The contrast was extreme and I was unsure how to handle it. I made an effort to counter the rumors with reason, sitting down with the people that I was told were behind most of it and trying to talk it out. It was useless -- possibly harmful. I was bringing things out into the open that people were used to having stay hidden and it didn't go over well. Yes, this hurt and frightened me, at times. But, I have to admit that I learned so much and have grown so much spiritually, that I was finally able to give thanks for the experiences. Let me paraphrase a conversation that I had about this,
with my friend Joe, (my name for my Guardian angel): Well, that's Joe for you. He was right, as
usual. A source of great comfort and balance. But hard to appreciate
as a young adult. Think about it. The only "person" I
would really talk to about this stuff was "not really there!" I
got great advice, a great outlook on life, but how could I believe
anything I got from my I am not out to argue or change anyone's mind about God or reality. Everyone has their own idea of what or who God is. It is my belief that we don't have to take everything spiritual or religious "on faith." If you ask for assistance, with sincerity, and then, pay close attention for the next few hours, days, weeks, etc., you will receive an answer. It probably won't be what you expected or maybe even wanted, but you will get an answer. I speak in these pages only about things in my personal experience, as that is all that I really can speak about. I urge you to try some of the spiritual exercises for yourself, here or on other web sites, books, or where ever you might find them. Find our for yourself, through your own experiences, that there is more to your existence than what you can touch with your hands or measure, or count. You can't see, touch or count love, but it exists. It doesn't matter one bit what I can do, it only matters what you can do. How I came to do workshops and write about my experiences is another story. <G> Today, I know lots of people who are able to communicate with their Guardian Angels, Guides and Masters and others who see auras and ghosts: mostly thanks to the workshops I facilitate. It's great! I guess we are all crazy in the same way! I do my best to follow a path of love, not of power. The path of power is a dead end. The path of love has no end. A lot of people tell me that they think it is "cool" to be psychic and wish they were able to see and hear the things that I do. I am not sure that they would like getting that wish. But, then again, maybe they would have an easier time with it than I did. What I do know is that being clairvoyant and/ or psychic is not a guarantee of spiritual enlightenment or an indication of a loving nature. One can easily be psychic and not be kind or have compassion for others. I am not personally interested in developing more psychic powers. I have more than enough to cope with now! I AM interested in increasing my ability to give and receive love more fully. The purely psychic planes are not a very high vibration. The psychic realms end -- and the God planes continue. On the God planes, psychic powers are irrelevant, because only love exists. Part of my life
lesson has been learning more about balance and self-responsibility. This
doesn't sound very exciting, does it? At first glance, this process
may seem slower than you'd hoped to be able to go. However, because
this process is steady, one
can achieve greater spiritual growth, over a shorter period of time, than might
otherwise be done. It includes
exciting times of discovery and explosive growth. Angels are big news lately. They’ve even been on the cover of Time magazine and are starring in TV programs and specials. It is fascinating to me that so much of the same information has been shared by Angels and Masters with people all over the world, at about the same time, with great success. In ages past, this information was reserved for people who spent their lives preparing to make use of it. Times have changed. Most of us no longer live in a society where we have the option of spending most of the hours of each day in meditation, contemplation or inactivity. We have to adapt to the changes in this world. Some techniques given to the public by the Masters and Angels, in recent times, take these social changes into consideration. This kind of work is such that any person can find the time to do the spiritual exercises contained in this workshop, if they want to. The information is available to every person who is interested. No person will be turned away. It need only be asked for. People often ask me if the information can be misused by unethical persons. I have been told that this is not my concern. There are always people who will try to misuse anything. Ultimately, the knowledge cannot be misused. The Spiritual Law of Cause and Effect, sometimes called Karma, deals very effectively with this problem. I hope you find something useful on this web site. If you just give these ideas -- and the angels -- a chance, I believe that your life will change for the better! Enjoy! |
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